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Jamais Vu - Poem

Published online by Cambridge University Press:  19 November 2025

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© The Author(s), 2025. Published by Cambridge University Press on behalf of Royal College of Psychiatrists

I spent
aeons
of my childhood
wandering this galaxy
floating, fingers brushing
felt, feathers and glitter
as they wheeled me down
the dressed-up corridors
eyes wet as they
watched the world
go by
birthdays and new years
constellations glisten and gleam
in that sterile room
where I learnt to stop time
romanticise the fantastical
and swallow my pills
and faces from the starship
etched fondly in my memory
like black-and-white photographs
in a photo album tucked far away
opened and dusted off
every time I caught a reflection
…and in its absurdity
it almost felt like home.
so, I thought it would be like that again
but
this place does not feel like home
anymore
the hallways are narrow
the ceilings are too low
displaced, muscle memory serves
no purpose here
anymore
perplexed that these
bare labyrinthian networks
and spiralling staircases
do not lead me
where my memories
sprang forth
there is no feeling or face
that embraces me
no warmth or familiarity
the heart has frozen still
and
the photographs have
faded in the sun
a tragic heartbreak
or intergalactic phenomenon
time seems to impose
and I cannot even remember
why I so desperately wanted to
cling on.
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